Wow, can it really be already? Hard to believe! Christmas was a total blast! I got off ½ day Friday & so we were able to get an earlier start up to Battle Creek. Stopped off at Gander Mountain in Coldwater because he still didn’t have much in the way of Christmas or Birthday for #2 son. We were finally able to get something good for Christmas & he was going to take him over to Kalamazoo to get new sights picked out, put on & tested. They had a bunch of fun doing that, but that is getting ahead of myself. We went to Oye Amigos with S & D for dinner, then just sort of crashed back at the house. Saturday morning, C came over, he & S cooked breakfast (I donated my yearly Kringle, they are sooo tasty!) and then we opened presents. They even got me something, I thought that was so sweet. They really liked the collage frames I did for them. S got a new iPhone & she was totally in love with it. Luckily C & D could help her get it all set up. For supper, we went out to his Gramma’s on the lake & tons more present opening. And he told me twice that morning that he loved me. Once just a straight out “I love you” and once a “that is just one of the many things that I love about you” statement. Met more of the family. And got to know more of the family jokes. Like gramma never opens or uses any of the presents given to her, so EE decides to bust out the hand lotion (wow, it smelled very girly!) and we joked that she’s had it for 10 years. And what did I end up getting from her, but a bath set! D joked “better be careful, if that’s not used in 10 years Dad’ll get into it”. Wow, do they think we’ll still be together then? That would be totally cool. It was such a whirlwind night because we left there, and then joined up with the Hibiske’s and gang for another celebration. It was nice to finally meet Tom after hearing so much about him. Another pilot from CAP was there, Mike. His wife Bonnie was so super sweet & made me feel very welcome. Apparently word has gotten out about me… Ken & Theresa were there too, and it was a lot of fun to see them again. It was so late by the time we got back to the house, everyone was exhausted. Luckily D & S were with us, so D drove us all home. Sunday we really just hung around the house, tried to catch up on laundry. The kids went over to see their mom & we eventually made it over to see his again. She fed us a nice leftover supper before we headed back Indiana way.
We spent the night at my house again, and I left to go get the boys, he went back home for a bit, then caught back up with us to open presents. It was amazing to have someone there again to share that with. He went back to BC after a rousing game of Monopoly. It is so hard when I get to be with him for so much time, and then he’s just gone again. I know it would be the same way if we lived under the same roof as I would still want him to go home & visit with his kids. I just miss him, is all. He was able to help his mom clean out the kitchen a bit, and he had D work on the basement. And they went to K-Zoo. And then he was back Friday night & I got to see him again. He stayed for a bit, then left to go home. Saturday, Dad came over early to get the boys & take them swimming so I could actually just go to the hair salon & not have to hear any grumbling. I had a fantastic updo done at Willow Salon by Jen. Got the car washed & fueled up, then came back for a quick nap. Woke up about 5 so I could start getting ready, he would be over at 6:30 so we could be at Charley Creek by 7.
I was mostly ready, except my earring. I had to have my ear re-pierced and I thought I could slip out the stud & put in a nicer one and it worked until I dropped the nice one, and then I couldn’t get it to go back in. And he had to shove it through. It hurt. I could not believe how incredibly sexy he was in his tux. Wow, I almost didn’t want to leave the house. But we made it there in plenty of time, Jill wasn’t there yet so we got a glass of wine & waited & talked. We shared a wonderful meal together, the 3 of us. I guess it was sort of reversed, last year I was without an escort & she shared Tom. So I shared EE. We went downstairs after supper & danced a bit (and he told me he loved me!), then back up to the Green Hat for Sam & a couple more drinks. Just an absolutely amazing time. Bumped into one of my bosses, who raved about me so much it was embarrassing – and sweet. Also bumped into one of my senior English teachers. She hasn’t aged a day. Found out the trees on my driveway are from her farm. Totally cool. I love connections like that.
We made it home safe, and had more fun when we got home, if you know what I mean. And it was so amazing to sleep next to him again. I miss seeing him next to me when he’s not here or I’m not there. And more in the AM. And when I got up, I just really didn’t feel well. He sat on the couch and drank coffee while I dozed. Then he fixed my bathroom drain. Again. I hate the fact that he’s always having to fix stuff. And then I got up and felt so much better. And we sat & talked until the boys came home. He stayed and ate supper with us. And I loved every minute of it.
And today, the boys had to go to school, but I didn’t have to go to work. It was an awful lot like playing hookie & I loved it! I worked on getting Christmas letter written, getting some memorabilia sorted, pictures printed out & hung up, etc. And then he took me to lunch & we went shopping at Walmart together. That was fun. When we got back home, we had enough time to have more fun before the boys got home. He left shortly after, they were on shutdown last week, so tonight will be interesting for him as they bring all the machines back online. Some of them take close to 8 hours to get warm enough to run. So he had to go in 3 hours early. Bummer.
A couple weeks ago, when I was over helping him wrap presents for his kids (that was weird for me to write out the tags & put Dad on them) I told him how it troubled me that we don’t say “I love you” very much because I want that to be the last thing he hears from me, should something happen. And I told him I was just always so scared to say it because I didn’t know if he would say it back & I couldn’t handle the rejection. He just laughed & said he was thinking the same things. Then he said “I love you very much”. And yes, I’ve told him back each time. So we still don’t say it every day, at least the words, but we do say it other ways. Like in the way he took care of me yesterday, and the way he does little things for me, he’s so very supportive of me & always gives me such generous, heart-felt compliments. And I try to say it back in similar ways. But I really just like saying it.
Here is one of all 3 of us in the Wine Shoppe.
And here is just the 2 of us in the Green Hat. It is not the best photo – quality-wise, but it is my absolute favorite. Absolutely, most definitely all-time favorite. I love that we are laughing. I love that he has his hand on my hip & mine on his chest. I had no idea she took it, it is just an amazing candid, a once in a year shot. We both look so very happy. I have found my happy. That is part of my happy.
We spent the night at my house again, and I left to go get the boys, he went back home for a bit, then caught back up with us to open presents. It was amazing to have someone there again to share that with. He went back to BC after a rousing game of Monopoly. It is so hard when I get to be with him for so much time, and then he’s just gone again. I know it would be the same way if we lived under the same roof as I would still want him to go home & visit with his kids. I just miss him, is all. He was able to help his mom clean out the kitchen a bit, and he had D work on the basement. And they went to K-Zoo. And then he was back Friday night & I got to see him again. He stayed for a bit, then left to go home. Saturday, Dad came over early to get the boys & take them swimming so I could actually just go to the hair salon & not have to hear any grumbling. I had a fantastic updo done at Willow Salon by Jen. Got the car washed & fueled up, then came back for a quick nap. Woke up about 5 so I could start getting ready, he would be over at 6:30 so we could be at Charley Creek by 7.
I was mostly ready, except my earring. I had to have my ear re-pierced and I thought I could slip out the stud & put in a nicer one and it worked until I dropped the nice one, and then I couldn’t get it to go back in. And he had to shove it through. It hurt. I could not believe how incredibly sexy he was in his tux. Wow, I almost didn’t want to leave the house. But we made it there in plenty of time, Jill wasn’t there yet so we got a glass of wine & waited & talked. We shared a wonderful meal together, the 3 of us. I guess it was sort of reversed, last year I was without an escort & she shared Tom. So I shared EE. We went downstairs after supper & danced a bit (and he told me he loved me!), then back up to the Green Hat for Sam & a couple more drinks. Just an absolutely amazing time. Bumped into one of my bosses, who raved about me so much it was embarrassing – and sweet. Also bumped into one of my senior English teachers. She hasn’t aged a day. Found out the trees on my driveway are from her farm. Totally cool. I love connections like that.
We made it home safe, and had more fun when we got home, if you know what I mean. And it was so amazing to sleep next to him again. I miss seeing him next to me when he’s not here or I’m not there. And more in the AM. And when I got up, I just really didn’t feel well. He sat on the couch and drank coffee while I dozed. Then he fixed my bathroom drain. Again. I hate the fact that he’s always having to fix stuff. And then I got up and felt so much better. And we sat & talked until the boys came home. He stayed and ate supper with us. And I loved every minute of it.
And today, the boys had to go to school, but I didn’t have to go to work. It was an awful lot like playing hookie & I loved it! I worked on getting Christmas letter written, getting some memorabilia sorted, pictures printed out & hung up, etc. And then he took me to lunch & we went shopping at Walmart together. That was fun. When we got back home, we had enough time to have more fun before the boys got home. He left shortly after, they were on shutdown last week, so tonight will be interesting for him as they bring all the machines back online. Some of them take close to 8 hours to get warm enough to run. So he had to go in 3 hours early. Bummer.
A couple weeks ago, when I was over helping him wrap presents for his kids (that was weird for me to write out the tags & put Dad on them) I told him how it troubled me that we don’t say “I love you” very much because I want that to be the last thing he hears from me, should something happen. And I told him I was just always so scared to say it because I didn’t know if he would say it back & I couldn’t handle the rejection. He just laughed & said he was thinking the same things. Then he said “I love you very much”. And yes, I’ve told him back each time. So we still don’t say it every day, at least the words, but we do say it other ways. Like in the way he took care of me yesterday, and the way he does little things for me, he’s so very supportive of me & always gives me such generous, heart-felt compliments. And I try to say it back in similar ways. But I really just like saying it.
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