As always you can find the full upload here http://www.flickr.com/photos/81154606@N00/ and these are my favorites. October was a busy month for that year. My mom was in the hosptial most of the summer so we did not take a family factraion until fall break. We ended up going to Chicago for 3 days and the boys loved it!
Adler Planetarium was a must…
This park next to the Field Museum was a huge hit, I think they would have been happy just staying here!
I love the skyline views
I was glad we got to see Sue
What a great, classic song! But it is really just my thoughts that are rambling tonight…So the brain dump…
1.It has been forever since I’ve written down my own thoughts. I think about doing it when I’m not, but then when I can I hide behind something else. Like playing Farmville. Avoiding? Probably. I never like being left alone with them.
2.Boys are at my dad’s having 1 last sleepover before they go to their dad’s for 6 weeks. Yikes! Sitting out on the porch doing battle with the bugs & having a glass of wine.
3.It’s Roann from Oak Hill Winery in Converse, you should try it. At least the winery. Make sure you drink it chilled. Room temperature. Of the cellar… 58….
4.Realize that I don’t have very many real-life friends. At least that I go out with and do stuff with. Bummer on a Friday night when I’m all alone.
5.Turned on my iTunes. Realize I really shouldn’t listen to music. It makes me melancholy.
6.Same goes for girly movies.
7.Watched way too much TV tonight & had popcorn for supper. It was so buttery & good!
8.Wish I was back in Florida with the Hooligans
9.Wish I were anywhere with EE.
10.Can’t wait until next weekend when I get to spend the whole weekend with him in Traverse City.
11.Wonder if he ever wants our relationship to be more than what it is now.
12.He says I scare him because I’m a perfect fit. But he doesn’t remember because he had 1 too many beers at Arcadia.
13.Can’t, and don’t, want to imagine my life without him.
14.Why can’t I tell him this?
15.Why can’t I ask him?
16.Why am I so afraid of rejection?
17.Why would I want to be with him if he didn’t really want to be with me?
18.Find it hard to talk to him sometimes. It seems like this topic is the white elephant in the room, at least for me.
19.Was so disappointed on valentine’s day, and my birthday, when something didn’t happen.
20.Wish I would get over it.
21.Wish I could just get it through my head that I’m never going to be “enough” that this is my life and this is what it is going to be so stop getting your hopes up.
22.Bummed that I still can’t add a garage without getting a loan even with all I have saved up.
23.And that he’s not offered to rescue me.
24.Tired of being a single parent
25.Tired of not really being able to be a parent
26.Just want to run away
27.Boys started Tae Kwon Do, Tuesdays & Thursdays. I told him I was worried it would mean seeing less of him. He said we’d figure it out.
28.He says it’s complicated and he doesn’t know what to do with me. I told him about it a bit 2 weeks later at naked tchopstix and he admitted that was true.
29.Always want what I can’t have
30.I want what is in music and movies
31.Listening to the drone of bugs, the tweets of birds, hum of bikes and the rumble of semis as they go by.
32.Wonder where I went wrong.
33.Used to be able to talk to him about everything, now I hesitate. Because I’m afraid of the answer. See #21.
34.Bugs 1, me 0.
35.Wonder if I’m ever going to be different.
36.Wonder if anyone is ever going to want to marry me that I also want to marry.
37.Find it very hard to let go & let God.
38.Maybe I should get the tummy job instead of the garage.
39.Am I ever going to get it right?
40.Is there something wrong with me?
41.My relationship with Jesus is not really where I want it to be.
42.Need to get back to drawing & scrapping & clay.
43.Need help remembering to do these things & not be bummed all the time.
44.Don’t always enjoy my job.
45.I wish I knew more.
46.If I’m going to have to completely go back to school, I’d rather learn new stuff. Like all the automation work we do.
47.Wish I sang more.
48.Is this how everyone feels?
49.Was so excited to get to have lunch with him, or when I get a message from him.
50.I want to be the one he doesn’t want to live without.
